broadway baby!

My dream and I do mean dream because I never think of it as reality, is to be an actress and live in New York City,can't you tell by my dramatic tendencies?I also love writing because it's a release but I feel that I can't do these things for a living because it's a risk and I'm scared of failing.My personality isn't one that jumps out and grabs you,it takes me awhile to get used to people enough to be myself and when you want to be a performer of any kind I think you need to be out going.Besides that there is a lot of rejection involved and I don't exactly have tough skin.There's apart of me that just wants to see what it would be like if I tried to make it happened and another part of me wants to have a secure job and life.I love the idea of being on a stage,being in a film or writing a great story not for fame just to be someone who creates and who is creative.I want to live my dream and hope for the best.But seriously there's a lot of people who have my same dream,it's competition.I am glad that I didn't have weird showbiz parents that could made me audition for disney every year until I was too old.I really love when people live their life and set goals for themselves,it's always inspiring.So that's my secret job dream,I'm confident it's going to stay secret for now especially because no one reads this,seriously no one reads this it's actually a fact,but it's okay I write for myself...yeah I didn't believe that either.