I've been thinking I should call my blog "confessions of an indecisive girl" because alot of what I write about is how I can't make up my mind or about me not knowing what I want,but knowing what I don't want but I have decided to be more proactive in life,weird that everytime I hear the word "proactive" I think of acne medication but whatever.In being more proactive I decided not to go on a million dates like my dear friend Scotty says I should, instead I'm just going to be open to the possibility without trying so hard.Another thing I'm going to do is whatever I can(within reason) to get a car because as much as I'm terrified of being on the road I need to take responsibility and get a car and be an adult.I need to spend more time with my brothers,give my mom a break because being a mom is seriously the hardest job ever and I also have to scold my step-father more,he's so self-centered that he probably wont notice me giving him bad looks and being mean to him.Lately I've been feeling so unproductive,even though I have a job,school and I take care of what I can, there's still so much to do.Believe me I am not the hard working type,I happen to think I'm very lazy but I've never had a problem with that until recently.It's weird that I always feel stressed and now I want more responsibility that could possibly give me more stress.UGH maybe I'm just masochistic but I definetly don't like down time,I'm always thinking of reading or studying to fill up my time because I think I never do enough,maybe if I would turn my brain off and just enjoy free time to do nothing I'll be fine but I'm me so that's impossible.Okay now I'm rambling but to conclude I think taking on more responsibility or maybe I should just chill out,uh oh indecisiveness alert.
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